& Oh oh oh, Whadda ya know oh oh?

This is my fault? All my fault. I lost a friend along the way, i didn't pay enough attention to you, and yea i forgot about you and yea im sorry, but you. You didn't fight for me. For our friendship, so this isnt just my fault. Oh and people need to stop askin whats wrong if they don't want to know. You, you're whats wrong you handed me what i've always wanted, then snatched it away like some sick joke. But apparently this, this is all MY fault. Four friends have asked me 'what's wrong' and when i tell them all they say is, people can help you, you have people..But apparently not them. Someone anyone needs to stop me, i can't help myself. You don't want me so don't pretend. Don't pretend you have a clue to what i'm going through. Don't prented you understand, i know i can act and i know i can lie, because i do it everytime i tell you i'm fine, or laugh it off. See through it. I open up you shut me down, tell me to see the other side. this is all my fault?

& It's Over?

Sometimes i think Fate, Destiny, God or whatever force is out there knows slightly more about life than i do. This realisation comes about when something happens which is pretty much the opposite of what you wanted, but turns out to be exactly what is needed. The person who broke my heart (not a boy, so it wasn't "love", it was my bestfriend) told me something that made me realise, that all the time and energy i'd been putting into getting us back as we were wasn't going to work. All she said is even though things are different now, i still care. She's right, everythings different now, she abandoned me and continued to ignore me, am i angry and out for revenge? Of course not, i couldn't hurt her if i wanted to. However i realised it was kind of like being in a bad relationship, one that now i have -finally- moved on and stopped grovelling for her favour, i finally see. I'm free and happier than i have been in a long time. :)

Now onto the rant. Yes, Yes i must rant. Ahem...You're twelveish! You are NOT in love! You DO NOT have the right to call me immature and stupid! You should STOP controlling people!
Why must Grophland now be home to some people who are rather young but attempt to act like they are older and better than everyone else! Not everyone of course! Only a selection of the users on Grophland fit this description and rather like the song "They give love grophland a bad name!"

Shout Out and ionno we'll see.

Ok so first of all a Shout out to Hanzie or Hannah. Which should i call you? Anyway she's been amazing and has really helped me a lot. Also because i think she someimes reads my lil blog here which makes me feel some what worthwhile.

Secondly and the rest will all fall under the category of ionno we'll see. Well we're about to see aren't we!! I've been a bit stressed lately, but thankfully and unbelievebly even with everything that's going on my schoolwork hasn't suffered, however i tried to write something the other day, just a tiny eensy weensy bit of story and it sucked! Mind blowingly sucked, so now i'm trying to get my writting skill back by blogging??? eh worth a try at least. Ohkay so i'm learning Italian, and i have an asian accent when i try and speak italian but all in all a good effort i believe. Am i rambling why yes i think i am, Paramire is awesome and all that jazz.

Ergh what else??? I'm relativly attractive, i'm fit, i'm smart, i tell dad jokes? yus yus i do! and i am slightly weirded out when my 21 year old sister comes home pretty sloshed offering me dip and bickies or goon and juice. But it was pretty funny to watch her waddle around the kitchen pretty damn drunk rummaging through the fridge then poppin pain pills to prevente the 'killer of a headache' she's gonna get. Before saying Adios and exiting.

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Okey dokey, Howdy everyone, who i'm pretty sure is no-one. But if you do read this be sure to comment so i'm aware i'm not just talking to myself, which i do a lot of. So yea this post is going to be a whole lot of not much and a massive rant.!!

First off, to everyone seeking help on grophland i hope you get it. To the few who attack people after they comment trying to help and not seeming all that rude, breathe and realise they aren't attacking you just trying to help. To the person who always comments on people's help threads with how bad their problems are and their whole post is about themselves, i personally don't see how it helps anybody.

To my darling friends who have all become very very bitchy, were you always like that and have i only just noticed? Hows about we all just stop attacking and judging people and grow up! You don't like who i am, deal with it because i'm not changing for you.

Anyways, how awesome is How I Met Your Mother, it's my happy place at the moment, never fails to make me smile. Grophland's getting pretty boring again and i'll probably take another major break, yes i know that above was a major rant/whinge but it's my blog so..whatever. Cest La Vie.

I suck at blogging

I'm just a tad busy..Always!
Between high school, friends, family and a whole lot of doing nothing i don't find much time to blog or even write anything anymore.

HAPPY EASTER!!
went to Sydney for Easter, to my relatives, had a brilliant time! Always do, one massive crazy family! I cut my hair, and am getting a new laptop, no more family computer xD!! anyways.. not sure what else to blog about..i'll think of something later. Out

Exchange?!?!?!

So i brought up the subject of going on exchange to my mother, and instead of the response i was expecting, "It's too expensive, your sisters didn't get this chance!" i got....drum roll, puh lease..."That sounds like a brilliant idea, why dont we contact a few people and get the info?" Thank-You mother dearest!

So now im thinking America or England??